Peripheral-ness

If there's one thing I've never been able to stand, it's being peripheral.

Ask anyone who knows me well. My existence inspires strong emotions. People either love me or hate me at first sight -- I'm just too ubiquitous to be ignored entirely.

Of late, though, it's been to my real detriment that I've been attracted to several guys to whom I was peripheral in their life. Guys whom I just didn't "fit into" the scheme of things as they intended it. It's not their fault, it's not mine, it's just life. But why why why why why?

More whining later.

Meanwhile, the apartment hunt is on. Pray for me.